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[ferociousfuckingnerd]

[A place to text Mori if need be go]

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Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

[Oh...

Mori is typing...

But then it disappears and he isn't typing anything for 20 minutes]

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

[ WHAT HAS HE DONE. HE SHOULD LEAVE IT LIKE THAT SHOULDN'T HE. Does he want to talk? What if it's important. Why does he keep second guessing shit when it comes to Mori, fuck. ]

Kacchan: You're going to take back everything you said and it's gonna feel like shit
Kacchan: But if you wanna talk just come over.

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

[. . .]

Mori: I don't want to make you feel like shit.
Mori: I don't know if I want to take everything back
Mori: I wasn't lying before, but everything seemed a lot simpler when I was under that effect and I don't know where my heads at now.
Mori: If you don't want to talk about it I won't push it. We can leave it.

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

[ it's his turn to take some time before answering, and eventually— ]

Kacchan: Meet me in the lobby in 5 minutes

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

Mori: Okay

[DOWN HE GOES]

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

[ he arrives shortly after - wearing the HSS outfit Mori got for him, this time in full. He just walks up to him and then nods towards the door and starts walking outside the hotel, expecting him to follow ]

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

Ah, hi...

[Mori follows after him, nervous.

He still has the earring in.]

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

[ yeah, he noticed, and he's definitely staring at it for a moments, but then he just keeps walking in silence. ]

... If you want to talk, then talk.

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

[nnnnnnnnnnnngh. Rubbing his wrists, he wanted to talk but he's so anxious]

Did you... dislike it?

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

[ That's not the question he expected, and it shows. He doesn't stop walking but he does turn to look at him ]

—Which part?

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

I know you were worried about taking advantage of me the other day, but... there were moments where you felt vulnerable.

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

[ no don't bring attention to it!!! Now he stops walking, looking Mori up and down and then just shoving his hands into his pants pockets, quiet for a few moments still ]

Who the fuck wouldn't feel like that when people can just take a peek and check their emotions just like that? 's fucking miserable.

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

Well, yes, but... vulnerable about specific things...

[Was he reading it wrong? Maybe this was a mistake after all]

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

[ well. now it's time for his face to go red ]

... I didn't hate it.

With you.

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

[s a m e]

...I didn't hate it either.

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

[ Somehow it was a lot easier to just pretend it was the effect from flowers and nothing else ]

And you said we had sex in a dream. and I kissed you.

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

Y... Yes, we did...

I'm sorry about not telling you after I figured out the dream I thought it would make things too weird if you knew and I didn't know what to do with it, I kind of panicked, and then it became this thing that, how could I just bring it up, and... S-Sorry.

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

... 's fine. It's not like you can just walk up to people and tell 'em "hey, we fucked in a dream".

[ But he doesn't really know how to take it or what it means yet. He wants it to mean something. But then Mori told him about all those complicated feelings associated to his dream, so ... it's not a good thing, is it? ]

You kept the piercing.

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

[Lifts his hand to his ear gingerly]

...I did. I want to keep it, properly.

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

[ Shit. This shouldn't make his heart jump to his stomach, what the fuck is wrong with him. It's just a piercing. In his color. ]

It suits you.

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

Th-Thanks.

[That's such a loaded compliment and he's so terrified of reading too much into anything]

You... You think it's alright? If I do?

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

[ it's extremely loaded and he doesn't know what to do to that question. If he says yes, is he ... giving him the wrong impression? What does it even mean if he says yes? Shit. He doesn't know how to handle it at all ]

Mori.

What did you want to talk about?

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

[aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah]

...I don't think we can just pretend the other day didn't have an impact on our relationship. I just... want to figure out what it means.

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

[ It's time to keep quiet for a little while longer but maybe if he turns it into a game of chicken he can survive this? ]

... Whad'you want it to mean? You're the one who wasn't thinking clearly all throughout that shit. I was.

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

[Please, he is already so anxious, this silence and chicken is killing him]

I don't know what I want it to mean. I keep getting stuck on... I...

I keep thinking, we don't want the same things, and we're not in the same place, a-and it's like neither of us are willing to say what we actually want because we're scared of getting hurt by rejection from the other!