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[He doesn't know about Duality but he has suspicions backed up by very little evidence and mostly based on cynicism]

...Yeah.

[And he still thinks that even if Hardcore doesn't like them like that now, things could still change in the future, it's not like any of his previous crushes set out to play with his heart either.]

...

Do you—

Want me to stop? Seeing other people. Even if we're not —

[ no, no, that's a stupid proposal and it's going to lead to stupid ideas and stupid everything. That's already commitment. And he shouldn't put the decision on Mori anyway, he obviously isn't ready either ]

Nevermind.

Ah--

[He's actually asking? Mori is surprised, and kind of touched, but also that is a very anxiety inducing commitment decision]

It's - it's okay. You don't need to stop, or change anything.

I know, I shouldn't have put it on you.

...

Do you remember what I said? About you being a zombie not being a good reason to date you.

[Ah. Putting a hand over his chest, he remembers that conversation, and all the serious things they talked about before, they argued a lot of things that didn't really get resolved didn't they]

Yeah, I remember.

Seems like it doesn't fucking matter because it fucking hurts seeing people fucked up regardless of if I'm with them or not.

But ...

I don't think I can handle it. Right now we just like each other, right? But — if I fall in love, and then something happens, and I can't do anything about it ...

Maybe they just fucking take you away.

Or maybe they use us being into each other against us.

I don't know ... how to handle that shit at all. So that's why I can't.

. . .

Mm. I understand.

But—

If I were to decide I don't give a shit about that ... it'd be with you.

[That

that is a lot.

He knows that's a lot, he knows Hardcore wouldn't say it lightly.

But in the end this is still a rejection.]

...I'm still not going to push you into making any decisions like that. But... Thank you.

... I'd like it if you kept wearing the earring. And I'll keep wearing the piercing you gave me, too.

Do you think that's okay?

[Ducking his head]

Y-Yeah... That'd be okay.

... Okay.

[ Should he come out and say it even if they're going for commitment. At this point it's stupid to hold back, right? ]

Makes me feel like I'm yours.

Ah...

[Oh no oh noooooo covering both of his hands with his face that's too much]

[ wow!! Reaching for his hands to pry them away from his face ]

Like that wasn't what you were thinking, come on!

I wasn't ready for you to say it!!

[HE'S SO RED, trying to pull his hands back!!!]

You already fucking felt it so there's no point in hiding it now!

There's a world of difference hearing you say it out loud!! If I said it you'd get overwhelmed too!!

You're not saying it so who cares!

Maybe I will say it! Then you'll see!!

I said it first so you can'tsay it. Too fucking late!

Who said it's too late? You don't have a monopoly on it! Or are you really satisfied with feeling like you belong to me without hearing I belong to you?

[ oooh fuck

It's time to immediately try to cover his mouth ]

[Oh no you don't, grabbing his hands and pulling them away]

That's how it feels! That's how it feels Hardcore!!!

Shut up!! I don't wanna hear it again! Shit!

Maybe you should've thought about that before you said it first!

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