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[ferociousfuckingnerd]

[A place to text Mori if need be go]

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Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

[ Oh. He thought it was going to be bullying but then he specifies. ]

Didn't you say you thought I wasn't gonna hurt you again...?

[ he seems to be hesitating a moment, but then he just reaches for his hand and grabs it, holding it as he tugs him to start walking again ]

What's got you thinking that I'd break your heart, huh?

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

[Oh. W-Walking with him, but lingering behind a little because he doesn't want Hardcore to see his face]

. . .

S'just what happens. You've, got a lot of people, that you don't have all this mess with, you might like them more...

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

I don't like them that way.

Noah's madly in love with his hero from his world. With Glory's fun and easy and I like her, but it's different. And with—

[ did he tell him about Duality. SHOULD he tell him about Duality. Probably not. ]

... It's different. But you had this happen before, huh. Your whole "you don't wanna be the guy people just have fun with".

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

[He doesn't know about Duality but he has suspicions backed up by very little evidence and mostly based on cynicism]

...Yeah.

[And he still thinks that even if Hardcore doesn't like them like that now, things could still change in the future, it's not like any of his previous crushes set out to play with his heart either.]

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

...

Do you—

Want me to stop? Seeing other people. Even if we're not —

[ no, no, that's a stupid proposal and it's going to lead to stupid ideas and stupid everything. That's already commitment. And he shouldn't put the decision on Mori anyway, he obviously isn't ready either ]

Nevermind.

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

Ah--

[He's actually asking? Mori is surprised, and kind of touched, but also that is a very anxiety inducing commitment decision]

It's - it's okay. You don't need to stop, or change anything.

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

I know, I shouldn't have put it on you.

...

Do you remember what I said? About you being a zombie not being a good reason to date you.

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

[Ah. Putting a hand over his chest, he remembers that conversation, and all the serious things they talked about before, they argued a lot of things that didn't really get resolved didn't they]

Yeah, I remember.

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

Seems like it doesn't fucking matter because it fucking hurts seeing people fucked up regardless of if I'm with them or not.

But ...

I don't think I can handle it. Right now we just like each other, right? But — if I fall in love, and then something happens, and I can't do anything about it ...

Maybe they just fucking take you away.

Or maybe they use us being into each other against us.

I don't know ... how to handle that shit at all. So that's why I can't.

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

. . .

Mm. I understand.

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

But—

If I were to decide I don't give a shit about that ... it'd be with you.

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

[That

that is a lot.

He knows that's a lot, he knows Hardcore wouldn't say it lightly.

But in the end this is still a rejection.]

...I'm still not going to push you into making any decisions like that. But... Thank you.

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

... I'd like it if you kept wearing the earring. And I'll keep wearing the piercing you gave me, too.

Do you think that's okay?

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

[Ducking his head]

Y-Yeah... That'd be okay.

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

... Okay.

[ Should he come out and say it even if they're going for commitment. At this point it's stupid to hold back, right? ]

Makes me feel like I'm yours.

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

Ah...

[Oh no oh noooooo covering both of his hands with his face that's too much]

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

[ wow!! Reaching for his hands to pry them away from his face ]

Like that wasn't what you were thinking, come on!

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

I wasn't ready for you to say it!!

[HE'S SO RED, trying to pull his hands back!!!]

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

You already fucking felt it so there's no point in hiding it now!

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

There's a world of difference hearing you say it out loud!! If I said it you'd get overwhelmed too!!

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

You're not saying it so who cares!

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

Maybe I will say it! Then you'll see!!

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

I said it first so you can'tsay it. Too fucking late!

Re: Day 237 morning

[ferociousfuckingnerd]

Who said it's too late? You don't have a monopoly on it! Or are you really satisfied with feeling like you belong to me without hearing I belong to you?

Re: Day 237 morning

[kingofexplodokills]

[ oooh fuck

It's time to immediately try to cover his mouth ]