Midoriya "Deku" Izuku (
ferociousfuckingnerd) wrote2018-06-28 05:18 pm
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Imeeji memory registry
- Playing hero with his mom (ch96)
- Kacchan getting his quirk
- Getting matching All Might cards with Kacchan (ch118)
- Watching All Might's fights with Kacchan (ch62)
- Not being able to throw stones (Ch9)
- Bug catching with Kacchan (Ch7 flashback)
- Mom's so sorry (Ch1)
- Kindergarten whispers about him being quirkless and lame (Ch9)
- Trying to help Kacchan up and RUINING FRIENDSHIP FOREVER (Ch9)
- Chasing after Kacchan and continually getting beat up (ch118)
- Getting bullied as a baby (Ch1)
- Mount Lady's debut (Ch1)
- Rescued by All Might and shot down (Ch1)
- "You can become a hero" (Ch1-2)
- Beach cleaning training montage (Ch2)
- Entrance exam (Ch3-4)
- Accepted into Yuuei (Ch4-5, 6 flashback)
- Kacchan can't stop me going to Yuuei (Ch5)
- First day of school (Ch5)
- Introductory exam (Ch5-7)
- Making real friends! (Ch7)
- First fight against Kacchan (Ch7-10)
- Telling Kacchan he's going to surpass him (Ch11, 13 flashback)
- Class presidency (Ch12)
- Rescue training gone wrong (Ch13-14)
- Flood zone battle (Ch14-15)
- Battle against Noumu (Ch16-21)
- UA sports festival announced (ch21-22)
- All Might's order (ch22-23)
- Bakugou making enemies as they prepare for the sports festival (ch23)
- Cavalry battle (ch26-30)
- Todoroki's past (ch30-31)
- Drawing lots (ch31-32)
- Vs. Shinsou (ch32-34)
- First rounds (ch34-36)
- Uraraka's loss (ch37)
- Vs. Todoroki (ch37-40)
- All Might was quirkless (ch41)
- The end of the battles (ch41-43)
- Iida's brother was attacked (ch44)
- Worrying his mom on break (ch44)
- Coming up with hero names (ch45)
- A scary nomination (ch46)
- Internships start! (ch46-47)
- Getting loose (ch48-49)
- Fighting the hero killer (ch50-56)
- The hand crusher (ch57)
- End of the internship (ch58)
- Losing the rescue race (ch58)
- The history of One for All (ch59)
- Studying for final exams (ch60)
- The practical exam (ch60-65)
- Watching the other exams (ch66-67)
- A change of plans (ch70-71)
- Catching Kota in the baths and hearing his past (ch71)
- First day of training (ch71-72)
- Villains again!! (ch73-74)
- Running around trying to fight with broken arms (ch77-83)
- Kirishima's rescue plan (ch83-84, ch85 flashback)
- Masters of disguise (ch85-86)
- All Might's final stand (ch87-94)
- All Might's retirement (ch95)
- Mom's refusal (ch99ch1086-97)
- The best room competition (ch98-99)
- Super moves and upgrades (ch99-102)
- UA hunting (ch102-108)
- Earning a provisional licence (ch108-114)
- Becoming proper rivals with Kacchan (ch116-121)
- The big three (ch122-124)
- Signing up with Nighteye (ch125-128)
- Failing to save Eri (ch128-130)
- Vowing to change All Might's fate (ch130-131)
- Internship team up meeting to save Eri (ch134-137)
- Waiting (ch137)
- Mid-boss rush (ch137-140, 142, 147-149)
- Saving Eri (ch152-159)
- Nighteye's death (ch161)
- Offering Mirio his quirk and returning home (ch162-163)
- Nighteye's funeral (Ch167)
- Voting on what to do at the culture festival (ch169)
- Reuniting with Eri (ch170)
- Preparing for the culture festival (ch172-175)
- Fighting Gentle (ch175-181)
- Cheering Eri up at the culture festival (ch181-183)
- Return of the pussycats (ch184)
- Watching Todoroki's dad get slaughtered on TV (ch188-191)
- A dream of the past (ch192-194)
- Mom's homemade costume (Ch8)
- Police cover up (ch56)
- Winning the race (ch23-26)
- A chat with Shigaraki (ch68-70)
- Aoyama's attempts at friendship (ch167-168)
- Classroom bullying (Ch1)
- Watching All Might's debut over and over (Ch1)
- Kacchan nicknaming him "Deku" (Ch9)
- Getting bullied as a baby
- Kacchan standing up to the bigger kids (Ch62)
- Saving Kota from Muscular (ch74-77)
- One for All - The people in this world who smile are always the strongest
- Hero names with his mom (anime)
- One for All - A world like a comic book (ch193)
Unsuspicious memory poll
2. Mom's so sorry
Deku is told that he is quirkless and should give up on being a hero. When he goes to his mother crying for reassurance she also breaks down in tears and starts apologising to him over and over. What Deku wanted to hear in that moment was her support, so this broke his heart and really dug in that nobody believed in his dreams and not even his own mother thought it was possible. Part of him knew that it was impossible, but he refused to accept it and clung to a futile hope that everyone treated him as delusional and a joke for.
3. Failing to save Eri
On the first day of his hero internship, Deku is out with his senpai Mirio and they run into the villain their mentor is investigating (Chisaki), and a frightened and clearly abused little girl who's fleeing from him (Eri). Mirio wants to play it off and leave as soon as possible to not arouse suspicion that they're hunting this villain, but Eri is clinging to Deku and begging him not to leave her. Deku holds her tight and confronts Chisaki about why she's covered in so many wounds, he doesn't want to let her go but Mirio keeps pressuring him to let her go and stick to the original mission. Eri ends up going back to Chisaki to protect Deku and Mirio from his fury, and later when they report to their mentor he tells Deku he's being arrogant thinking he can save everybody on the spot and they have to play the long game.
This memory is distressing because the whole reason Deku became a hero was to save people. There's a dichotomy in the series of the motivation to 'save everyone with a smile' and to 'defeat the villain and win no matter what'. Deku is very firmly on the saving everyone end of the spectrum and it's difficult to hear that he can't, that sometimes, you have to leave a little girl to get hurt for the sake of the big picture and stopping the villain from doing so much worse. He can't let it go, can't stop thinking about her, along with several other personal issues with Mirio and Nighteye that he can't remember at this point, but it's all very upsetting and is Eri okay???