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[ His breath becomes a little smokey with the change in topic ]

It has been...unsettled. Aries and Haruto were moved to other teams as younger versions of themselves. No one has been handling it well.

I saw that. It's strange for me seeing them like that, I can't imagine how it must be for the rest of you. It can't be helping with the stress.

It's... I believe it is the primary source of stress for most of the team now.

That's understandable. I'm sure once the initial shock of it passes, everyone will be able to manage it better, but it's still a horrible thing to happen. I'm sorry, Talon-kun.

I know you asked for help with managing hero related stress, but, are you okay to talk about this too?

It...is related, isn't it? As far as I have been able to tell, people can be rather transient in my memories. It seems to be common among heroes.

[Briefly reminded of Kouta's distress when his parents died in battle...]

It's a difficult part of the job. I'm still only in training, so I haven't remembered too many things like that, but I've seen how bad it can get... It's not quite the same as when people leave here, but it's still hard to feel stable.

...I don't think stability is something you can expect as a hero. I have had six months here, and I find myself wondering if I've had that long with anyone at home since leaving my mother.

I don't recall how I dealt with it then. ...and I certainly do not know how to deal with it when Aries—Scythe, now, has taken some interest in getting to know us.

[Aren't the heroes you're around your family?? That's awful what is your dad doing]

I wish it hadn't been that way for you. Stability is something that's difficult to hold onto, but it can be possible for heroes to achieve.

Here though, as an idol... It's much harder to try and hold onto it with your own hands. I don't have experience with teammates being transferred, and being different people entirely, but I do understand how it is when people important to you show up and they have no idea who you are.

Do you want to get to know Scythe? You don't have to, if you think it will only make you more stressed.

[ Being the son of a guy who has to help save the world on a regular basis has its drawbacks ]

I don't know what I want from him. Even thinking about it is difficult, and that is—alarming? I usually have difficulty not thinking, but with him and...and I am not certain what Haruto has named himself now. But when it comes to them my mind just...goes blank.

You might not be ready to deal with them right now. Sometimes you don't have your thoughts straight so you can't process them properly, or there's too much going on to distinguish any of your emotions, that's a normal reaction. Would you rather they not approach you until you're ready to think about it?

That would be helpful, but avoidance is not a solution, is it? Especially when distinguishing my own emotions is challenging even in day to day situations. It could be some time before I identify how I feel about...all of this.

It's not a final solution, but it's giving yourself space to find the solution you need. If you need to take time, then that's fair, and they can respect that. And it will be better for them too, that I do know from experience.

We can try and talk through how you're feeling, or at least identify what you don't want even if we can't find the right answer.

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Haruto doesn't respect anything. ...but I believe I can speak with Scythe about maintaining distance for now.

I would appreciate that. Normally I would do this with Silver, but he is...also troubled.

...Well if you really need it, there's always distracting him and sneaking away. You can text me and I can run interference on Haruto.

I've spoken to Silver-kun a bit. He needs time to deal with them as well, but he's tough. He's got people there for him too, I'm sure he'll be okay. You can speak about it when you're both up for it, but I'll do my best to help until you're both ready.

I will keep that in mind for Haruto. And as for Silver—I know. Wild City would be there for him too if he would allow us to be.

[ The smoke on his breath darkens at that. ]

If you're helping him too, then we owe you our thanks.

[maybe they should have had this meeting in the smoking lounge instead]

He's my friend, I'll always do my best to help him. But right now, we're focusing on you.

Right...of course.

[ Takes a slow breath to recenter ]

... It feels like it would all be easier if I had not allowed myself to become so attached.

...I do understand that feeling, but... I think without attachments, this whole place is much harder to deal with. You'd only be hurting yourself a different way if you tried to isolate yourself like that.

Are you worried you'll get attached again, even if it's not the same Aries and Haruto?

At least it would be a pain I can understand.

I...believe that I am more concerned about them being taken again. They were taken from Wild City for a reason after all.

That doesn't mean it would be better. There isn't a concrete pattern to the people who were taken that I can figure out, so I can't reassure you that they won't leave... But they are different from the people you knew. If they were brought in for different reasons, they probably won't be taken for the same ones. Perhaps these two are meant to stif things up.

How do you know it would be worse? Perhaps with less attachments, there would be more time to focus on escape from this place. Perhaps that is why the Producers change unit rosters so frequently—to keep us distracted.

Talon-kun, do you think you could find an escape from this place on your own?

Yes. Actually escaping would certainly take a collaborative effort, but I believe a single person could uncover the method to escape alone.

Mm, perhaps you could find a way home if it was just you, but that's not the same as true escape. Even if you weren't attached to anyone here, could you really just leave? Walk out and never look back, leaving everyone else trapped here?

Absolutely not. I will not leave this place until everyone who needs aid or escape has received it. That's a hero's duty.

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