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[A place to text Mori if need be go]

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I know that.

I'm sorry for unloading on you. I realize it's a lot, but it's easier to talk right now than before. Because of...

[he gestures vaguely to himself]

After that, it feels like it happens, again and again, everything comes back to that feeling, that I'm not needed. Games keep turning back on that point, and it started as something I was unsure about. I know it isn't true, but it doesn't stop.

[Shakes his head]

Don't be sorry. I asked you to tell me.

You're needed, Todoroki-kun. I need you, at least. And I know you've worked hard to protect your team before, games can weigh down on you here but you were able to protect Angel-san and Intensity-san when we were all attacked in the Hunger Games. I know how hard you work to take care of them.

[he turns looks at him then, eyes widening a little bit at the very first part, but then he just. nods vaguely as Mori keeps talking, shoulders relaxing slightly]

Logically... I know this. It's easier to accept when I can't think negatively, but I know emotionally it's difficult—

[okay just, he has to come back to that]

You need me?

You're a very calming influence. You keep me grounded. And I know no matter what happens, you'll always have my back. That's very reassuring, you know? I'd be a way bigger mess if you weren't here.

... I've always felt like I'm the one who keeps relying on you. That I can't really give anything back. It's not like I've done much in terms of helping. You're the one who brought me out of my mindset, and you're the one who's been listening to me when I needed it.

But when did I do that for you?

[now he looks a little helpless but not upset]

. . .

[Pulls out his phone, opening it to show him his background, the picture Todoroki sent of him and Silver in their kigurumi.]

Do you remember when you sent this to me?

[that's... his background? he'd almost forgotten about that, it was when he first started talking to Silver]

Yes?

This was the first time I smiled after the trial. You did that. You came over to visit me, and make sure I was okay, and you didn't let me drown in my own guilt and self-loathing.

When I broke my ribs and went blind and couldn't stop coughing up dirt, you said you wouldn't let me go, and got me healed, and made sure I got home safely.

When we both died in that protection game, you hugged me when I cried and made me stop apologising and told me you didn't blame me. You got me out of my own head and made me feel like no matter what, we had each other.

When I got attacked in the hunger games, you wanted to protect me. You fought by my side and had my back and we got through it together. I felt so much safer with you around. My powers rely on friendship you literally made me stronger just by believing in me.

And when Hardcore - Kacchan, showed up, you wouldn't let him speak badly of me in front of you. You stood up for me and told me it was alright to be upset, and even if he's your friend too, you'll be here for me and ready to listen.

Things don't always go right. We've failed a lot. I've failed a lot. But you've always been there to help pick me back up.

[he opens his mouth, then closes it, taken off guard, expression light and open and bewildered in a way he's not sure he can control]

I thought... it only made sense. Because I care. I didn't think it meant that much to you. It did to me because you're—

[oh my god this is not the time for an emotional surge]

...

You're probably the person I consider closest.

[Hugs him properly]

It means a lot to me. You're my best friend. I'm not saying that lightly.

[... returning the hug, watching his own hands on Mori's back as he leans his head on his shoulder, silent for a bit]

...

[Mori will just continue to talk then, rubbing his back.]

I know, no matter what, I can always rely on you. You say it only makes sense, but that's because you're such a good person. And a good friend. I don't just need you around, I want you around. The fact that you've always been there, just caring for me because it felt natural, it means more than you know. No matter how awful things have been for you, you've always made time for me, done as much as you could to help me out. You've built up so much faith and trust, and you never even realised it?

[leaning into the hug a little more BUT ALSO FEELING VAGUELY FARAWAY GUILTY FOR IT because wheeze emotions how do I hold them also we're just friends of course we are, how can I even mention anything without ruining things?]

... you did it for me first.

Edited 2020-01-24 20:18 (UTC)

Friendship isn't a competition! We're just doing these things for each other because we like each other, right?

... yes.

[HE DOES LIKE YOU A LOT]

Right. So, don't doubt that you're an important friend I need.

I believe you. I will do my best to get over my mistrust in myself too...

I'll keep reminding you until it sinks in.

[nods, silent for a moment and then talking into his shoulder, voice quiet]

I like you a lot, Midoriya.

[OBLIVIOUS]

Heh, thanks. I like you a lot too.

[wait is that a reply? ... that's kind of anticlimactic? that can't be it... can it? he has no idea how this is supposed to work and he sounds confused when he replies, staring at the floor behind Mori]

You do?

[I MEAN WE JUST SAID WE'RE FRIENDS but still he's no expert in either field]

Of course I do! I just said, didn't I?

[hang on his brain is coming to a screeching halt, and he pulls back a little, looking equally confused and... just this icon]

I... Yes, you did...

Edited 2020-01-25 23:53 (UTC)

[Pats him on the shoulder]

That game really did a number on you if you're still this surprised. Yes, I like you Todoroki-kun.

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